Be Selfish: Letting It Be

Ahhh. We are a couple of weeks into the New Year. I'm proud of myself. (Hehehe, it's really weird to say that, and it's even more weird to read that!) The first New Year's Resolution that I had this year was to be selfish. I do think that this will help me to tackle the other ones on my list.

Now, back to why I feel proud of myself. :)

Tonight, I CONSCIOUSLY made the decision NOT to start laundry! It was after 9 pm, and, if you remember correctly, mom is no longer housekeeper after 9 pm. The kicker, and why I'm so proud of myself, is because I am not bothered by this decision. Also, I'm enjoying the silence of my house and just relaxing! This is HUGE for me!

It's kind of incredible about how much more I can get done during the day if I take more time to relax myself. I'm feeling a lot less stressed. A LOT LESS. Life is still crazy, which is awesome. Crazy and relaxed. <Relaxed exhale.> It's more of 'how it should be' lately. It's a great feeling.

Taking these quiet 'off the clock' times in the evening is letting me to savour the quiet times with the kids, especially Evelyn. It's letting my brain remember the people who I never want to forget. It's allowing my heart to heal. It's allowing me to work through the lingering pains of last year and cope better. It's allowing me to shower!! OFTEN!!!

If anyone would have told me that I could drop everything and do nothing for a few hours each evening, I would have thought them to be crazy. I'm a workaholic in every part of life! This is so far from 'me'..... but I like it!

I find it motivating. My home hours are more relaxed, yet they seem to be productive!

If you're like me, try this yourself. It's amazing how much just allowing it be at the end of the day makes a difference. Let the laundry be. Let the dishes me. Let all the chores be. ... and lastly, just be... be yourself. Enjoy your family. Read a book. Pray. Find what makes you tick and be.

<3 Loving it, while missing you with every ounce of me. :)

* I will eventually hit on my next resolutions. Just trying to master them one at a time. :) .... and yes, they are largely formed by grieving and committing to making life changes to live a full and happy life. :)